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One of Those Nights
Tonight is one of those nights when I just put all my guards down for a while.
I let myself feel all those feelings I’ve been avoiding.
I let myself dream all those dreams I’ve been trying to kill.
I let you fill my head, hoping there will be less of you in it in the morning.
I feel kind of stupid.
I never trust this kind of feelings.
This will not last.
This will soon change into something else.
This will not last I keep telling myself.
But I picture you and me and we’re perfect.
We could spend hours and hours and days and years making each other happy.
I could put more of that smile you rarely have on your face.
We could laugh until both our cheeks hurt and isn’t that the best kind of pain?
You could teach me how to hope again and we could be silly.
I could be yours and you could be mine.
Tonight I let all these silly thoughts occupy my mind.
Just so I could deny them again tomorrow.
Pretend I don’t want more.
Pretend I don’t love more.
Tomorrow.
-Grace
